… I often catch in myself a strange feeling of anger and irritation when I go to the openings. I ask myself why someone less talented is doing exhibitions, and I do not. The truth is that I can’t quit my job and start painting full time. There’s no guarantee I could earn enough money to cover my mortgage and life expenses. …
… How to apply glazes and what underpainting should be prepared beforehand turned out to be a big revelation for me. Before the Old Masters Academy course, I had no idea that to paint a naturalistic skin, I have to juxtapose various glazings of various transparency. Instead, I tried to mix the right color on a palette and then blend accurately one tone into another directly on the canvas. …
… I do not want to make any guesses what will come to me in my near future. Will I find the courage to change something in my life or not? Who knows? In that regard I’m a very cautious person. But ideas about changing my career path have visited me more and more often.
